Everything seems to be so perfect in SZPT. Yup, just seems to...... I had been thinking whether this is true, or I am just lying to myself.... like.... the result of Speech Competition, or Debate team, I am definitely one of the most outstanding people here, and in the way of re-application, I am wasting so much time on... on the things that I don't even care! time to call the previous ben back.... he's gone too far.....

when a tiny tiny hope came along, i did even consider millions of chances to be a.... whatever.... so pathetic.... they are all illusion... when i realize where i wake up every morning, everything disappears....

move on, ben.....